Even though I only worked for three days this week and then had time off, I still feel exhausted. Of course, a big reason for this is that I didn't sleep well last night. But I still have to say that taking time off is really harmful. It ruins vacations, weekends, and subsequently, good moods.
Personal Life:
- I ate too much during the May Day holiday and ended up with two cold sores on my mouth. Having cold sores on the mouth is really painful. It's torture to eat and speak, and the mouth is a major active area, making it difficult for the sores to scab and heal. I can only wait for time to heal them.
- Our company had a weird weekend team building activity. They occupied our day off for the team building, and it was a self-driving trip. Colleagues with cars drove others more than 100 kilometers to a remote countryside resort that closes at 9 PM. The bedroom posters in the resort are from the 90s, featuring hot and spicy women in tank tops and tight pants, and the soundproofing is terrible. Luckily, I didn't go. Using my day off for team building is like a level one alert.
- I used to dislike the idea of destiny and its unchangeable nature. It made me feel incredibly oppressed because I believed that things are in our hands and we can change our destiny. However, recent life experiences have given me some new thoughts. Perhaps the so-called "change" is also part of destiny. Destiny is not an unchanging curse, but even if you change and your change is effective, it is still a form of destiny. I forgot which writer said something like this, but the general idea is "Life is like when you look at it from the beginning, you don't know where it will lead you. But if you look at it from the end, you will find that your life has already chosen its path." For us at the present moment, it may be a fork in the road or a choice, but the options have already been determined. The difference is that now I don't resist destiny as much. After all, I am the experiencer of my own life, and I am just a character in someone else's game, just as others are NPCs in my game world. In the end, we will all end up in a black box. Since the outcome is already determined, isn't the most important thing the experience itself?
- I had a nightmare the night before yesterday. I dreamt that my mom had a car accident, and I couldn't reach her by phone. I woke up directly from the dream and called her in a daze. After my mom answered the phone, I hung up, which scared her a bit. She said I had never woken up before 8 AM and wondered why I called at 7 AM. Then my dad woke up too and called me back. I told him it was nothing, just a dream, and that I would go back to sleep. As I grow older, my attachment to my family grows deeper. I have always been emotionally blunt, and I used to think I could live alone without caring much about other people. But now I realize that I rely on my parents more strongly than I can remember. It's not about living together; I like living alone. But I want them to exist forever, without aging. I even fear their departure. This is an emotion I have never had before, a profound bond. This is probably what family love is.
- I didn't rest well at all this week. I need to find time to catch up on sleep. My sleep is cyclical, averaging more than 8 hours a day, with a week as the cycle. It's okay to sleep less today, but I must make up for it in a few days. Otherwise, my body won't be able to handle it, and I'll be in a constant state of shutdown (writing this report feels confusing; my eyes can barely stay open).
- I haven't felt much difference from using the posture correction cushion yet. The main user is my cat, and judging from his frequency of use, he really likes this cushion.
Work:
- Work is a chaotic thing because you have to follow other people's rules most of the time. My company has also opened my eyes. We have to write daily reports three times a day: a morning work plan, a midday work progress and afternoon work arrangement, and an evening work summary. We also have to write weekly reports and monthly reports. In addition to that, we have a daily morning meeting, a weekly meeting, and a monthly meeting. This week happened to be the monthly meeting in May. Eight hours a day, four hours of meetings. It's the first time I've encountered such a weird company, and it's in the advertising industry. It's quite shocking, truly a different world. If it were in the past, I probably wouldn't be able to tolerate it for a day, but now my mindset has changed a lot. Unless it crosses my bottom line, these things don't really bother me. As for why I can tolerate it, that's a secret.
- I finished a project in just two days and didn't have to work overtime. When rushing to complete the project, I felt like a powder keg about to explode. But the urgency of time actually sparked my inspiration and increased my efficiency. I like working because I enjoy the pressure and anxiety that work brings. Only when I finish something do I feel a sense of accomplishment and breakthrough. A challenging life makes me feel alive. If work has no pressure and relies solely on experience and repetitive tasks, and anxiety comes solely from within, then there's no need to wait to be replaced by artificial intelligence; I would already be replaced by humans. A downward life is not worth living, and neither is downward work.
- The advertisements made by Guan Zhangjia are really good. It's been a long time since I've seen such impressive advertisements. Whether from the perspective of creativity, branding, product, or consumer, you can see their thinking. I can learn a lot from them.
- The promotional videos made by Sichuan Culture and Tourism and Longdao are not that great, at least in my personal opinion. Artistic films are too commercial, and commercial films are too artistic. This is a common problem in the market right now. But I think advertising is not that complicated, nor is it so high and mighty. If a city's tourism advertisement is not something you want to show to your family or friends, and they don't understand it, then regardless of whether it's cyberpunk or avant-garde art, the advertisement has already lost its target audience. Of course, many people have discussed this advertisement and believe that the public's aesthetic needs improvement, and they think it is a criticism of the current situation.
- Advertising is subjective, but there are differences in quality. For example, the recent five doctoral elevator advertisements that I saw in the elevator last month made me feel physically uncomfortable. I felt like the advertisement was going to be criticized. It was a product for female audiences, but it ended up being vulgar. As expected, it recently became a hot topic, but some people believe that with such a high level of discussion, the advertisement has already succeeded. All I can say is that if half of the people in the advertising industry feel the same way, then advertising deserves to become colder and colder.
Conclusion:
I don't want to summarize anymore. That's it.